decision making is the most cruel thing for indecisive ppl like me!
i knw very well that i will regret my decision be it to stay or to leave,
but like what my mom say, i cant have both.
so many pros and cons that are affecting my decision.
i used to urge coach to start engtat,
wanting sooo much to go over,
but then right now, i dont feel this way anymore,
partly because i felt quite left out,
not a single bit of self belonging,
im sry to think this way, but this is the fact.
12:45 AM