Sunday, November 13, 2005
training at hu was pathetic , 5 only , me , charlene , cindy , ms tan , aunt . how pathetic can it be lors . hu people are actually suppose to come from their chalet and go back after the training but they say they didnt have a good night rest , very tired so never come lors . went gym , aunt teach some layup stuff , she sort of 'scolded' me , not really scold but i dunno how to describe it lars , as when i shoot , i do jump shot . but i also dunno i did that ? hmm , so i have to change it now . play 2 vs 1 , me and charlene vs ms tan . when i layup , ball always kanna hit alway . ARGH , I MUST PROTECT THE BALL . FUCK IT ! after it ended , i ran to the toilet and vomitted again . WHATS THE PROB WITH ME ? for 4 training , i been vomitting ! some screws getting loose huh . and i sat on the cubicle floor and cry lars . dunno why too ? training ended and i took mrt home . wanted to think lots of things but mine mind is simple blank ! and i feel the sudden urge to cry again . maybe cause i compress everything and today really cant tahan le . i need a shoulder .
* I HATE BASKETBALL !
I DONT WANNA RUN 2 ROUNDS OF CROSS COUNTRY !
I DONT WANNA RUN 4 ZHE !
I DONT WANNA SIT ON THE BENCH ALWAYS !
I DONT WANNA ALWAYS BE A LOUSY PLAYER !
I JUST HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT IT !
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