IM GOING E3 ! #*%?@ ... i wanna go e2 but even if appeal dunno can go in mahs . how sad ! training today , micheal didnt come again ! as per usual ran 2 rounds cross country lars . i walk alot during the second round . last training i walk too . first time ever ! how pathetic . i lost mine determination . no matter how hard i push mineself , persuade mineself , force mineself not to stop . i just simply dont give it a darn le . i just walk as and when i like . ran finish and i went to the toilet and cry . IM CRAZY LARS . sucky arsehole i am . things are no longer the same . i hate basketball ! not the same passion anymore or perhaps no passion liao ? whatever . tomorrow having a match at sas . must bring armour go ! later here orche there orche . LOLS ! hope mine butt wont be glued to the bench bahs - meaning i get to play . this sat and sun i cant go hu training le , cause got cca open house and having family gathering ? sad , wanna go the training before mine malaysia trip at least i can get to learn a miser bits ? malaysia trip is just next week ! what should i do ? I WANT TO GO BUT I ALSO DONT WANT TO GO ! blehs . GOOD LUCK for tomorrows match .

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